'Listen to your heart' ..because it is always right...ALWAYS!
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DEAR ELAINE AND JOHN, SO YOU BELIEVE IN LISTENING TO YOUR HEART? WELL SO DO I, I HAVE ALWAYS BEEN HONEST WITH YOU FROM THE START, I DONT MAKE EXCUSES FOR MY ADDICTION I WILL ALWAYS BE A RECOVERING ADDICT. JUST AS I WILL ALWAYS BE MICHAEL, ADAM, AND SOPHIAS, BIRTHMOTHER THAT LOVES THEM UNCONDITIONALLY FOREVER AND THEN SOME. THEY ARE THE DRIVING FORCE BEHIND MY RECOVERY, ONE DAY IM ASSUMING IT WILL BE WHEN THEY ARE 18 I WILL SEE THEM, I WILL TELL THEM THE TRUTH ABOUT WHAT HAPPENED. I THINK THAT IT IS SO UNFORTUNATE THAT YOU LIED TO ME AGAIN........YOU TOLD ME THAT I WOULD BE ABLE TO SEE THEM THAT IT MIGHT BE 6 MONTHS OR SO BUT I WOULD BE ABLE TO IF I STAYED SOBER........WELL 3 YEARS LATER IM STILL SOBER.........THE WORST PART ABOUT THE ENTIRE SITUATION IS THAT YOU LOOKED ME IN THE EYES AND TOLD ME THAT YOU WOULD GIVE UPDATES AND PICTURES, AND FOR SOOOOO LONG IVE WAITED AND NOTHING. MY QUESTION TO YOU IS WHAT DID I DO, WHY WOULD YOU CHOOSE TO BREAK THAT PROMISE TO ME? I BELIEVED YOU ELAINE I REALLY DID THEN I WENT HOME AND PRAYED ON MY DECISION, I ASKED GOD TO GIVE ME A SIGN, AND THATS WHY I SIGNED THOSE ADOPTION PAPERS VOLUNTEERILY. IT LITERALLY PIERCES MY HEART THAT YOU CANT TAKE OUT THE TIME TO TELL ME HOW THEY ARE AND SEND A FEW PICTURES. BUT I LOOKED INTO YOUR EYES (YOU KNOW THE WINDOWS OF YOUR SOUL), AND I KNEW YOU LOVED MY CHILDREN, AND BECAUSE YOU HAD THEM FOR SO LONG I FELT GUILTY FOR WANTING THEM BACK IN MY HOME BACK THEN, YOU HAD HAD SOPHIA ALREADY FOR NEARLY 3 YEARS AND FROM BIRTH. THESE ARE THE REASONS I SIGNED THE PAPERS, I ACTUALLY HAD ENOUGH LOVE FOR THEM TO GIVE THEM UP SO THEY CAN HAVE A BETTER LIFE ONE I WASNT SURE I COULD GIVE THEM. THAT IS THE DEFINITION OF UNCONDITIONAL LOVE. TO THINK OF SOMEONE ELSE BESIDES YOURSELF. NOW I ASK YOU CAN YOU HEAR MY HEART AT ALL????????? IVE COME TO TERMS THAT YOULL NEVER LET ME SEE THEM AND ILL SEEK THEM OUT WHEN THEIR OLD ENOUGH BUT AN UPDATE AND A FEW PICTURES IS ALL IM ASKING THEIR GRANDPARENTS AND FAMILY LOVE THEM AS WELL SO IM REQUESTING YOU TO PLEASE LET US KNOW HOW THEY ARE AND PLEASE SEND A FEW PICTURES. WE LOVE THEM, I LOVE THEM I MISS THEM, I MISS THEIR TOUCH, THEIR SMELL, THEIR TOUCH, THEIR LAUGHS, THEIR CRIES, THEIR EYES, THEIR TOES AND NOSE. I DEEPLY WOULD HOPE YOU CAN LISTEN TO MY HEART......... ELAINE, I FEEL THAT IM NOT REQUESTING MUCH I JUST WANNA KNOW HOW THEY ARE AND SEEN HOW MUCH THEY HAVE GROWN. PLEASE RESPOND BIRTHMOTHER, MICHAEL, ADAM AND SOPHIA JENNIFER
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DEAR ELAINE AND JOHN,
SO YOU BELIEVE IN LISTENING TO YOUR HEART? WELL SO DO I, I HAVE ALWAYS BEEN HONEST WITH YOU FROM THE START, I DONT MAKE EXCUSES FOR MY ADDICTION I WILL ALWAYS BE A RECOVERING ADDICT. JUST AS I WILL ALWAYS BE MICHAEL, ADAM, AND SOPHIAS, BIRTHMOTHER THAT LOVES THEM UNCONDITIONALLY FOREVER AND THEN SOME. THEY ARE THE DRIVING FORCE BEHIND MY RECOVERY, ONE DAY IM ASSUMING IT WILL BE WHEN THEY ARE 18 I WILL SEE THEM, I WILL TELL THEM THE TRUTH ABOUT WHAT HAPPENED. I THINK THAT IT IS SO UNFORTUNATE THAT YOU LIED TO ME AGAIN........YOU TOLD ME THAT I WOULD BE ABLE TO SEE THEM THAT IT MIGHT BE 6 MONTHS OR SO BUT I WOULD BE ABLE TO IF I STAYED SOBER........WELL 3 YEARS LATER IM STILL SOBER.........THE WORST PART ABOUT THE ENTIRE SITUATION IS THAT YOU LOOKED ME IN THE EYES AND TOLD ME THAT YOU WOULD GIVE UPDATES AND PICTURES, AND FOR SOOOOO LONG IVE WAITED AND NOTHING. MY QUESTION TO YOU IS WHAT DID I DO, WHY WOULD YOU CHOOSE TO BREAK THAT PROMISE TO ME? I BELIEVED YOU ELAINE I REALLY DID THEN I WENT HOME AND PRAYED ON MY DECISION, I ASKED GOD TO GIVE ME A SIGN, AND THATS WHY I SIGNED THOSE ADOPTION PAPERS VOLUNTEERILY. IT LITERALLY PIERCES MY HEART THAT YOU CANT TAKE OUT THE TIME TO TELL ME HOW THEY ARE AND SEND A FEW PICTURES. BUT I LOOKED INTO YOUR EYES (YOU KNOW THE WINDOWS OF YOUR SOUL), AND I KNEW YOU LOVED MY CHILDREN, AND BECAUSE YOU HAD THEM FOR SO LONG I FELT GUILTY FOR WANTING THEM BACK IN MY HOME BACK THEN, YOU HAD HAD SOPHIA ALREADY FOR NEARLY 3 YEARS AND FROM BIRTH. THESE ARE THE REASONS I SIGNED THE PAPERS, I ACTUALLY HAD ENOUGH LOVE FOR THEM TO GIVE THEM UP SO THEY CAN HAVE A BETTER LIFE ONE I WASNT SURE I COULD GIVE THEM. THAT IS THE DEFINITION OF UNCONDITIONAL LOVE. TO THINK OF SOMEONE ELSE BESIDES YOURSELF. NOW I ASK YOU CAN YOU HEAR MY HEART AT ALL????????? IVE COME TO TERMS THAT YOULL NEVER LET ME SEE THEM AND ILL SEEK THEM OUT WHEN THEIR OLD ENOUGH BUT AN UPDATE AND A FEW PICTURES IS ALL IM ASKING THEIR GRANDPARENTS AND FAMILY LOVE THEM AS WELL SO IM REQUESTING YOU TO PLEASE LET US KNOW HOW THEY ARE AND PLEASE SEND A FEW PICTURES. WE LOVE THEM, I LOVE THEM I MISS THEM, I MISS THEIR TOUCH, THEIR SMELL, THEIR TOUCH, THEIR LAUGHS, THEIR CRIES, THEIR EYES, THEIR TOES AND NOSE. I DEEPLY WOULD HOPE YOU CAN LISTEN TO MY HEART......... ELAINE, I FEEL THAT IM NOT REQUESTING MUCH I JUST WANNA KNOW HOW THEY ARE AND SEEN HOW MUCH THEY HAVE GROWN. PLEASE RESPOND
BIRTHMOTHER,
MICHAEL, ADAM AND
SOPHIA
JENNIFER
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