HELLO E&J, I HAVE JUST READ YOUR STORY AND I MUST SAY THAT IT IS TOUCHING AND VERY HARD FOR ME TOO TAKE IN AT THIS EXACT MOMENT. I WOUL LIKE TO START BY SAYING THANK YOU FOR SHARING ALL OF THIS INFORMATION WITH ME, I NOW HAVE A BETTER UNDERSTANDING OF YOUR FAMILY. THERE ARE SOME THINGS THAT DO CONCERN ME HOWEVER, SO HAVING SHARED THAT WITH YOU PLEASE ALLOW ME TO EXPLAIN.MY FIRST CONCERN IS WITH MICHAEL HE WAS NOT EVER DRUG EXPOSED, I KNOW I TOLD YOU THAT AT THE MEETING WE HAD AT CATHOLIC CHARITIES SO AT THIS POINT I AM INVITING YOU TO HAVE HIS HOSPITAL RECORDS FROM WHEN HE WAS BORN AND I WILL LOOK INTO THAT. THEN ADAM,I WANT YOU TO KNOW THAT I DID USE 2 TIMES WHEN I WAS PREGNANT BUT WHEN I TOLD THEM(DCFS)THAT I USED THEY GAVE ME A CHOICE WHICH WAS GET ON THE METHADONE PROGRAM OR MY CHILDREN CAN BE REMOVED FROM MY HOME,WELL I CHOSE THE METHADONE PROGRAM. I WAS REFERRED TO DR. SHINDERMAN IN DOWNERS GROVE, ITS CALLED CAPS OF DOWNERS GROVE. I WILL ALSO RETRIEVE THOSE RECORDS FOR YOU BECAUSE WHEN I WENT THERE WHILE PREGNANT WITH WHO IS NOW ADAM I WAS DENIED. REASONING BEING I HAD NO DRUGS IN MY SYSTEM AND YOU HAVE TO BE POSITIVE FOR OPIATES TO BE APPROVED. WHEN I CALLED DCFS AND INFORMED THEM OF THIS I WAS TOLD TO DO WHAT I NEEDED TO DO TO GET ON THIS PROGRAM-YES, YOU READ THAT RIGHT I WAS TOLD TO GO GET HIGH, WHILE PREGNANT, TO PROVE THAT DCFS PUT WHAT THEY CALL A SAFETY PLAN IN EFFECT AND MICHAEL WAS TO BE DROPPED OFF AT MY PARENTS HOUSE SO I COULD GO GET HIGH, SO THAT I WAS APPROVED FOR THE PROGRAM MONDAY MORNING. I WILL NEVER FORGET THAT DAY AS IT WAS MOTHERS DAY 2001 AND MY MOTHER WAS CRYING AND COULD NOT BELIEVE WHAT AND HOW THE SYSTEM WORKED.AT THAT POINT SHE TOOK MICHAEL AND I WAS TO GO USE HERION SO I WOULD BE ABLE TO KEEP MICHAEL.AT THIS TIME MICHAEL SR. WAS IN PRISON AND WAS AGAINST THIS ENTIRE THING, BUT TOO DID NOT WANT TO LOOSE HIS SON. I WAS LIVING IN NAPERVILLE AT THE TIME ON BAILEY RD. AND I ALSO CAN GET THOSE DOCUMENTS SO I CAN BACK UP THE TRUTH.MY NEXT CONCERN IS ON PAGE 6 OF YOUR STORY THAT FIRST PARAGRAGH THAT SAYS I WANTED YOU TO KEEP IN TOUCH WITH UPDATES AND PICTURES,I DID TOO ALSO STATE THAT WOULD LIKE TO SEE THEM 3-4 TIMES A YEAR AT LEAST AND I SAID 3-4 BECAUSE I DONT WANT YOU TO THINK THAT I WAS TRYING TO INTERFERE WITH HOW YOU AND JOHN WERE GOING TO RAISE THEM. I DIDNT WANT THEM TO THINK FOR ONE MINUTE THAT I DIDNT LOVE THEM OR WANT THEM BECAUSE I DID AND I STILL WANT THEM,I STILL WISH THINGS WOULD HAVE BEEN DIFFERENT IN MY LIFE SO THAT THEY CAN EXPERIENCE MY LOVE FOR THEM.IN THAT PARAGRAGH YOU MENTIONED NOTHING ABOUT ME EVER BEING ABLE TO SEE THEM OR MY PARENTS,WHO THEM CHILDREN LOVE WITH ALL THEIR HEARTS, THE STRIKIG PART TO ME WAS THAT YOU WOULD KEEP IN TOUCH WITH US WITH PICTURES AND UPDATES AS THEY GREW TO ADULTHOOD. SO MY PERCEPTION IS THAT YOU HAVE NO INTENTION ON ALLOWING US TO SEE THEM, I AM AWARE THAT YOU SAID 2 PLUS YEARS BUT I FEEL LIKE IT IS PARTLY TO HAVE THEM FORGET ME OUR BREAK THE BOND I DID SHARE WITH THE BOYS,IM NOT SAYING THAT THIS IS YOUR MOTIVE BUT I AM SAYING THAT THIS IS HOW I FEEL. I KNOW IN MY HEART IF YOU ASKED BUBBA AND ADAM WOULD THEY LIKE TO SEE ME THAT THEY WOULD SAY YES! AT THE SAME TIME I AM NOT SURE IF IT WOULD BE IN THEIR BEST INTEREST BECAUSE THEY WOULD MISS ME AND IT WOULD BE EMOTIONAL, HAVING SAID THAT, I DONT HAVE ALL THE ANSWERS BUT COUNSLERS HAVE TOLD ME THE LONGER IT IS THE HARDER IT IS. I WAS ALSO TOLD THAT IT IS IMPORTANT THAT I KNOW THE TRUTH AS TO WHAT YOUR INTENTIONS ARE SO THAT I MAY HEAL, AND NOT HAVE FALSE HOPE. I WANT YOU TO KNOW THAT I LOVE YOU BOTH AND I BELIEVE YOU BOTH HAVE HEARTS OF GOLD TO LOVE ANYONES CHILDRENS AS YOUR OWN NOT JUST MINE.YES, I MISS THEM AND LOVE THEM I AM STILL TRYING TO PICK UP THE PIECES AND THERE IS NOT A BIRTHDAY OR DAY FOR THAT MATTER THAT I DONT THINK ABOUT ALL OF THEM.I DO HAVE TO GO KNOW BECAUSE I AM IN MY COUNCLERS OFFICE AND MY TIME IS UP BUT PLEASE DO NOTE I HAVE A NEW EMAIL ADDRESS, AND I DONT KNOW WHAT YOU TELL THE KIDS ABOUT ME BUT PLEASE TELL THEM THE TRUTH. ILL BE IN TOUCH SOON NEW EMAIL IS jennifer9173@hotmail.com PLEASE TELL ALL THE CHILDREN THAT I LOVE THEM BUNCHES AND BUNCHES AND MISS THEM ON A DAILY BASIS ALL MY LOVE, JENNIFER
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HELLO E&J,
I HAVE JUST READ YOUR STORY AND I MUST SAY THAT IT IS TOUCHING AND VERY HARD FOR ME TOO TAKE IN AT THIS EXACT MOMENT. I WOUL LIKE TO START BY SAYING THANK YOU FOR SHARING ALL OF THIS INFORMATION WITH ME, I NOW HAVE A BETTER UNDERSTANDING OF YOUR FAMILY. THERE ARE SOME THINGS THAT DO CONCERN ME HOWEVER, SO HAVING SHARED THAT WITH YOU PLEASE ALLOW ME TO EXPLAIN.MY FIRST CONCERN IS WITH MICHAEL HE WAS NOT EVER DRUG EXPOSED, I KNOW I TOLD YOU THAT AT THE MEETING WE HAD AT CATHOLIC CHARITIES SO AT THIS POINT I AM INVITING YOU TO HAVE HIS HOSPITAL RECORDS FROM WHEN HE WAS BORN AND I WILL LOOK INTO THAT. THEN ADAM,I WANT YOU TO KNOW THAT I DID USE 2 TIMES WHEN I WAS PREGNANT BUT WHEN I TOLD THEM(DCFS)THAT I USED THEY GAVE ME A CHOICE WHICH WAS GET ON THE METHADONE PROGRAM OR MY CHILDREN CAN BE REMOVED FROM MY HOME,WELL I CHOSE THE METHADONE PROGRAM. I WAS REFERRED TO DR. SHINDERMAN IN DOWNERS GROVE, ITS CALLED CAPS OF DOWNERS GROVE. I WILL ALSO RETRIEVE THOSE RECORDS FOR YOU BECAUSE WHEN I WENT THERE WHILE PREGNANT WITH WHO IS NOW ADAM I WAS DENIED. REASONING BEING I HAD NO DRUGS IN MY SYSTEM AND YOU HAVE TO BE POSITIVE FOR OPIATES TO BE APPROVED. WHEN I CALLED DCFS AND INFORMED THEM OF THIS I WAS TOLD TO DO WHAT I NEEDED TO DO TO GET ON THIS PROGRAM-YES, YOU READ THAT RIGHT I WAS TOLD TO GO GET HIGH, WHILE PREGNANT, TO PROVE THAT DCFS PUT WHAT THEY CALL A SAFETY PLAN IN EFFECT AND MICHAEL WAS TO BE DROPPED OFF AT MY PARENTS HOUSE SO I COULD GO GET HIGH, SO THAT I WAS APPROVED FOR THE PROGRAM MONDAY MORNING. I WILL NEVER FORGET THAT DAY AS IT WAS MOTHERS DAY 2001 AND MY MOTHER WAS CRYING AND COULD NOT BELIEVE WHAT AND HOW THE SYSTEM WORKED.AT THAT POINT SHE TOOK MICHAEL AND I WAS TO GO USE HERION SO I WOULD BE ABLE TO KEEP MICHAEL.AT THIS TIME MICHAEL SR. WAS IN PRISON AND WAS AGAINST THIS ENTIRE THING, BUT TOO DID NOT WANT TO LOOSE HIS SON. I WAS LIVING IN NAPERVILLE AT THE TIME ON BAILEY RD. AND I ALSO CAN GET THOSE DOCUMENTS SO I CAN BACK UP THE TRUTH.MY NEXT CONCERN IS ON PAGE 6 OF YOUR STORY THAT FIRST PARAGRAGH THAT SAYS I WANTED YOU TO KEEP IN TOUCH WITH UPDATES AND PICTURES,I DID TOO ALSO STATE THAT WOULD LIKE TO SEE THEM 3-4 TIMES A YEAR AT LEAST AND I SAID 3-4 BECAUSE I DONT WANT YOU TO THINK THAT I WAS TRYING TO INTERFERE WITH HOW YOU AND JOHN WERE GOING TO RAISE THEM. I DIDNT WANT THEM TO THINK FOR ONE MINUTE THAT I DIDNT LOVE THEM OR WANT THEM BECAUSE I DID AND I STILL WANT THEM,I STILL WISH THINGS WOULD HAVE BEEN DIFFERENT IN MY LIFE SO THAT THEY CAN EXPERIENCE MY LOVE FOR THEM.IN THAT PARAGRAGH YOU MENTIONED NOTHING ABOUT ME EVER BEING ABLE TO SEE THEM OR MY PARENTS,WHO THEM CHILDREN LOVE WITH ALL THEIR HEARTS, THE STRIKIG PART TO ME WAS THAT YOU WOULD KEEP IN TOUCH WITH US WITH PICTURES AND UPDATES AS THEY GREW TO ADULTHOOD. SO MY PERCEPTION IS THAT YOU HAVE NO INTENTION ON ALLOWING US TO SEE THEM, I AM AWARE THAT YOU SAID 2 PLUS YEARS BUT I FEEL LIKE IT IS PARTLY TO HAVE THEM FORGET ME OUR BREAK THE BOND I DID SHARE WITH THE BOYS,IM NOT SAYING THAT THIS IS YOUR MOTIVE BUT I AM SAYING THAT THIS IS HOW I FEEL. I KNOW IN MY HEART IF YOU ASKED BUBBA AND ADAM WOULD THEY LIKE TO SEE ME THAT THEY WOULD SAY YES! AT THE SAME TIME I AM NOT SURE IF IT WOULD BE IN THEIR BEST INTEREST BECAUSE THEY WOULD MISS ME AND IT WOULD BE EMOTIONAL, HAVING SAID THAT, I DONT HAVE ALL THE ANSWERS BUT COUNSLERS HAVE TOLD ME THE LONGER IT IS THE HARDER IT IS. I WAS ALSO TOLD THAT IT IS IMPORTANT THAT I KNOW THE TRUTH AS TO WHAT YOUR INTENTIONS ARE SO THAT I MAY HEAL, AND NOT HAVE FALSE HOPE. I WANT YOU TO KNOW THAT I LOVE YOU BOTH AND I BELIEVE YOU BOTH HAVE HEARTS OF GOLD TO LOVE ANYONES CHILDRENS AS YOUR OWN NOT JUST MINE.YES, I MISS THEM AND LOVE THEM I AM STILL TRYING TO PICK UP THE PIECES AND THERE IS NOT A BIRTHDAY OR DAY FOR THAT MATTER THAT I DONT THINK ABOUT ALL OF THEM.I DO HAVE TO GO KNOW BECAUSE I AM IN MY COUNCLERS OFFICE AND MY TIME IS UP BUT PLEASE DO NOTE I HAVE A NEW EMAIL ADDRESS, AND I DONT KNOW WHAT YOU TELL THE KIDS ABOUT ME BUT PLEASE TELL THEM THE TRUTH. ILL BE IN TOUCH SOON
NEW EMAIL IS jennifer9173@hotmail.com
PLEASE TELL ALL THE CHILDREN THAT I LOVE THEM BUNCHES AND BUNCHES AND MISS THEM ON A DAILY BASIS ALL MY LOVE, JENNIFER
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